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#22: taurus season (2025)

May 19, 2025

Hi, I’m glad you’re here. Today is a windows open kind of day where I live. I hope you get to feel a bit of a breeze today where you are too.

Here are some reflections from Taurus season this past month (Apr 19th - May 20th). Gemini season starts tomorrow, and you can find an overview of some of the upcoming astrology at the end of this newsletter.

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Taurus season is a great time to slow down, but I feel such an urgency around my day to day. It started a few years ago and it still hasn’t let up — if anything, I’m feeling it more and more.

I think it’s partly related to sobriety, being eager to make a life more on my terms now that I can. These sunsets after 8 pm really have a way of winding me up, too, because in this part of the year the days stretch on so long that I want them to just keep on going.

It’s motivating, but it’s also a little stressful. It makes it hard to rest — to sleep or to just lay around — because I feel like there’s always something more productive and exciting I could be doing with my time. I feel impatient at work sometimes, even though it’s rewarding work, because it takes time and energy that I could be putting toward goals and passions outside of my work life. When I’m not feeling great or not feeling like myself, I resent whatever is interfering with my well-being, even though it’s easily and often interfered with.

This is a good problem to have of course. It’s a very welcome change from the way I felt for too much of my twenties, so I’m not complaining about having a bit of joie de vivre. But it’s so like me to be unable to be normal about it.

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This past month, I had to ask myself hard questions about my little business and consider sad possibilities and do a whole lot of math. I was sort of diagnosed with two new acronyms by two providers in the span of a few days. My new sponsor may or may not have ghosted me. I had more vivid dreams, too, some of which were weirdly symbolic and a lot of which were pretty fucked up.

But I don’t have time for all that!

Math? No thanks. I can only deal with, like, one new diagnosis a year max, and I’d like a speedy and linear healing journey with these issues please. I could try calling my sponsor to see if she’ll respond that way, but I feel like there’s too much happening to get into it all right now. And yeah, I’ve got enough going on in my waking life and there’s enough going on in the world, so if the intense dreams could stop that would be great.

I do not have time for all this because I want to hang out with my friends! I want to work on my ~*secret project*~! I want to bake cookies! I want to make out! I want to make a playlist then go on a walk and listen to the playlist! I want to stretch! I want to read more lesbian books, learn more lesbian history, and meet more lesbians! I want to gossip! I want to hike out to the river and put my feet in it! I want to get more involved in my community! I want to eat fruit! I want to feel okay!

I’m in a hurry to get where I’m going, and I’m trying to figure out how to balance that with navigating the reality I’m more firmly planted in now. Maybe that just is how to navigate it though — handling what I have to when I have to, and prioritizing what I want to when I can. I feel lucky that I’m better able to do this these days.

A Taurus season highlight:

The sex writing class I took a couple of months ago made me want to take more classes, so I’m in one about love letters now. We’re reading some letters from well-known writers and reflecting on them together, and we’re writing a number of our own.

We’ll each be sharing a finished one of ours at the last class, and I’m definitely not very nervous about reading mine in front of the hot gay people or anything. Maybe I’ll share one with you hot gay people too.

Since I’m taking this love letter writing class, now is an especially good time to fall in love with me. Just putting that out there!